Let's get ready to rumble!

Hit the gym for the first time today in over a year.

Ugh, what to wear. I have no cute yoga pants (too fat), T-shirts are all so tight because of my DDD girls...maybe I just won't go. I'll go tomorrow, or better yet I'll order workout clothes online and when they show up, I'll show up.

I look in the mirror.

Seriously, Marcy! Out of the shoot and you're already finding an excuse?

With that, I grab my plus sized elastic waist sweatpants. Gray and stained. It's all I got. Ugh, added humiliation.

Next, how am I going to hold these girls up? Nothing gets more negative attention at the gym than my chest. last time I lost a lot of weight a friend approached me, "you look GREAT, but you still have those tits!" Um, thanks? Good thing I'm not a jogger! Have ya heard that joke about how Dolly parton got her black eyes? Well, I have no real choices so it looks like it's the one I wore to work. I made sure to put on one of my husbands dark blue fire dept shirts...dark hides a multitude.

Ok, here we go.

Holy crap, the place is packed! I really don't like this. No turning back. Suck it up big girl (no pun intended). Then there it was...it being she...my trainer was there with a client. Haven't seen her in a year. Her smile made me feel at ease and I realized she's watched me yo yo for 4 years! Her smile tells me I can do this.

17 minutes of cardio and I was soaking wet. Wow, I'm so out of shape. Did some muscle work, treadmill cool off & off I go.

I did it.

NOTE TO SELF: don't forget to build your workout playlist so you don't spend so much time song surfing! Talk about a focus killer! Find the arm band too! Fartin' around holding that thing kinda sucked!